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What is jobless?

When I am writing this…I am a jobless Guy…maluuu pisan, kalo kata orang bandung…cuma sabodo teing lahh…masa bodo amat…*apaan sih pannn* hehehehehehe

I dunno what are your condition now..but I would like to share mine..and how I feel..

One word to describe my feeling nowadays…"desperate"

Nih..just imagine…I was quite successfull in my academic live….termasuk golongan makhluk2 rajin lahh…IP gw lumayan 3,47..I was also successfull in non-academic live…I was in the top organization position in Binus International..President Student Committee (senat) di JWC boo…kurang keren apa coba..(maap…orang desperate lagi emosi =D)…

Gw juga aktip di Pelayanan..whether it is campus or church…sampe most of malam hari gw and even sabtu-minggu penuh buat gereja…

Bayangin..I did all those three things (academic-nonacademic-church) at the same time…pokoknya kata2 sombong dan narcisnya nya uda kerennn abizzz…..

And for a long reason..I decided to find a job opportunity other than Computer-related apalagi programming…bukan masalah gw ga bisa coding..(I like to code,though)..cuma masalah career path CS menurut gueee..menurut gue yaa…kurang oke dibanding non-TI..
Singkat cerita…gw uda nganggur 1 bulan…panggilan juga dikit…malah ditawarin kerjaan TI mulu…

Desperate…desperate..desperate…
1 bulan nganggur…bangun…gak ada kerjaa..besoknya gitu lagi..terus aja 30 hari..BT pisann

BUT…Kerennya…I have a kewl GOD…He’s really kewl…
Susah buat gw nerima keadaan ini….gw punya hak buat protes…"BABE..I did everything based on you..and now Please..I beg you..I need a suitable job for meee.."…
Cuma gw yakin dan percaya..kalo he is AWESOME…walo gw ngerasa He DIDNOT take care of me this month….

Selama 1 bulan ini..He takes care of me..jadi gw masih dipercaya dan diberi perkara yg lebih kecil, yaitu ngelesin…yaa pas2an lah buat kebutuhan sebulan…
..tiap kali gw bangun..gw pasti ngomel..duhh another jobless day…dan gw musti ngelesin…AMAZINGLY Tuhan jawab omelan gw dengan sesuatu yg unik…
Jadi anak les gw itu sekolah di Christian school, dan tugasnya selalu ada yg cari ayat..ato mengartikan ayat..ato reading comprehension bacaan tentang cobaan dan solve nya…dari situ..Tuhan selalu nguatin gw..entah dari ayat2 yang HARUS gw jelasin ke itu anak..ato cerita2 yg harus gw ceritain ke anak itu…
Disitu Banyak ayat2 yg nyuruh gw tetep cheerfull..happy…coz He’s God of everything…
dan juga cerita2 anak2 mengenai pencobaan dimana we have to surrender to Our lORD….which He’ll answer with His own way..
Jlebb exactly suitable for me…kewl kewl..thx God buat care nya…

My God is awesome!!!!!..

Dan gw yakin…Tuhan uda nyediain kerjaan buat gw…entah besok..lusa…bulan depan..ato kapanpun..
Gw akan terus berusaha dan gak putus asa…
Kalopun pahit2nya gw gak dikasi…ITU GAK AKAN BUAT GW BERHENTI MENCINTAI TUHAN GW….
I love HIM coz He loved me first…Thank you my LORD…..
I hope…next blog..should have the topic: "what is God’s answer?" by dat time I must have a job to share wif…AMINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

For you all dat have similar or other kind of problem..believe me…He always takes care of us…and one day..He’ll answer it by His own beautiful way…
God bless you all….

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